Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I just can't take it anymore!

I'm going insane. It's 2:30 am and I can't sleep. My blood sugar is out of whack, above 400 but I need to sleep so I can get up tomorrow and not be tired at work. I'm frustrated from everything caused by Diabetes. The insomnia, the level of my glucose, having to limp around from an old foot injury, dealing with sebaceous cysts on a weekly basis. Dealing with sebaceous cyst also means performing surgery in my own bathroom as best as I can! Which leads me to the fact that I'm tired of keeping gauze, tape, wound cleaner in my bathroom. And the cysts just keep coming back, over and over and over again!! Probably because I shouldn't be opening them on my own but there is no other way to get relief from the pressure. I don't know what to do.

I've been trying to get insurance but it's impossible, and I've called so many numbers, hit so many dead ends. I even had one lady tell me to go check myself into a hospital for six days before I get kidney failure. I've even tried finding a fulltime job but daycare for 2 kids wouldn't even be covered on a pay check. I shouldn't HAVE to use daycare. I should be able to raise my own children. Not just pick them up, feed them dinner and put them to bed! The only time I see myself getting insurance, is when the children are old enough for school. And by then, it may be too late.


Holly Schwendiman said...

Oh Vicky I wish so much you could find a quick answer. Blood sugar is nothing to mess with as it's not a question of IF things will happen/go wrong but WHEN. The body remembers everything and keeps a running toll. I hate so much to think your time with your family could be cut short! My dad is currently experiencing unexplained dives which are scary too. Have you looked into any books on natural resources, herbs, diet, etc. that could help you take a bite out of the sugar spikes? I just wish I had some solutions for you because I know this is more than annoying it's serious.


Daddy Forever said...

Sorry to hear about your health problems and your insomnia. I have trouble sleeping from time to time, but not on a regular basis like you.

I assume you are having trouble getting insurance because of health problems, right? Insane, isn't it? You need insurance because of your medical problems, but you can't because of the very same medical problems. Our health care system is screwed up.


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