Monday, May 03, 2010

Time..... (Rant about time...if you couldn't guess.)

"Can you teach me about tomorrow
All the pain and sorrow
Running free?
But tomorrow's just another day
And I don't believe in...
Time is wasting...
Time is walking...
I think I'm out of my mind... Thinking about time." --- Hootie and the Blowfish (Ya'll remember them?)

So, it's 2:12 am, EST and I just recently walked into the door from work. My schedule at work changed. It's similar to where I used to work in that I go in at the same time I used to.... but get out about an hour and 45 minutes after I used to get off. And have a slightly longer drive to get home. So, we've mostly eliminated the need for childcare. Although I am sad that I won't have a constant excuse to see my friend. We may go back to being lazy and texting all day when we're all of 6 houses away from each other. But we also may car pool our kids to school next year. And we'll have to find away to hang out more often.

So my new schedule is 5:00pm-1:30am. Yup, I get to leave my job at 1:30AM (if I don't go to the fitness center)! Isn't it exciting? I don't even work for the money. Yes, I am making a TON more than I used to make. Literally, I have moved us up a couple of tax brackets (oh joy!) but that's not why I am working. I don't care about the money. Is shopping fun? Yup. Every now and again retail therapy is needed. Mine retail therapy has involved way too much Best Buy lately. The staff at the local store know me when I walk in now. We actually walk around the store and have conversations. Recently, we had one about the All-In-One touch screen computers. They seem pretty awesome and the price of them are coming down but I am not ready to dive down deep into that kind of retail therapy. Tangent again... Retail therapy... nice but not why I work. No. I work and live with these ridiculously (Did I spell it right?) crazy, demanding, hours for 1 thing.... and 1 thing only------ Health Insurance.

It's sad and pathetic. If I wasn't a diabetic with an undiagnosed swelling problem..... I'd quit (by quit I mean go to part time because staying at home honestly would be too boring). I'm tired. I get up at 7:30am with the kids and occasionally get a small 20 minute nap during the day and walk in the door at this time all for the sake of not getting stuck with millions of dollars in medical bills. Needless to say, we're working on diagnosing the problem. And with out health insurance on my side, I would now have at least 20k in medical bills and instead I have way less than that. But there isn't enough time in the day. Luckily for me, Bug has learned all about disappointment this passed week and is completely fine knowing we're not going to the Zoo with her school so we have a Disney Store, Pizza shop, and nail salon visit planned for my Buggies tomorrow today.... assuming that I can roll myself out of bed knowing that I don't REALLY have to be awake yet. The only thing that really motivates me to get up after my 4.5 hrs of sleep is the bugs and what we need to get done. *sigh* How many more months until August 2012? You may see a counter put up here soon counting down until August 2012 when I am finally free of the night shift!

Wish me luck!

1 comment:

ModernMom said...

Oh makes mme so thankful o have insurance up here regardless of what kind of job I have...or don't have!
Time is alsways a struggle isn't!

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