So, I'm still nervous about having it, but I was able to get it ordered. Surprisingly enough, my co-pay for it was next to nothing. In fact, my insurance was awesome. My excuse for not getting it in the past was the $3,000 I'd have to pay to get it. I'm going to be paying $25 for it. Guess that excuse is gone. Odd note about it, they sell it in pink and purple too. I did the responsible thing and got it in a "smoke" color. It should be here in a couple of days. Then I'll take some kind of training for it.
There are apparently 2 different types of needles for these things. I hope I had the right decision. We were in a rush to get it so I just had to pick random answers. One needles goes in at a 45 degree angle, and one at a 90 degree angle. I chose 90 degree. There is a apparently a long tube and a short tube. My instructor at work already told me NOT to get the short tube so I knew that one. But I mostly feel like I'm in the dark. All I know for sure is that I will have better blood sugar control if I use this. I know I need to change the site everything 3-4 days. I know that it is discreet. The tubing kind of hangs out of the pants a little bit, but the pump itself can stay in my pocket. I'm not sure if I ordered the remote control with it. The remote control allows you to deliver insulin without having to take your pump out in public. Weird? I think so. If it's in your pocket, why do you need a remote? I don't know... the things that are invented these days. It's pretty tiny. Here is what it looks like:
I've been doing so many things that are good for me lately. I've cut out a lot of stressors, a lot of people... especially my half-brother. Who... wow, I can't even describe what he's done to my family. But lets just talk general, I no longer talk to the people who aren't good for me. The ones that have a negative impact on my life. I'm a happier person for it. It's less for me to worry about or deal with as well. The less drama, the better.
I've been going to the gym almost every night. My doctor said that last time I saw her, I was 10 lbs heavier. I think I have about 15-20 more pounds to go before I am where I need to be. When I get there, I can work on toning. It seems the last 20 are the hardest, always. I have been eating a lot better. I sneak in a treat a couple nights a week, but I cut snacks out of my diet, so I pretty much stick to meals. Tonight, I didn't stop at the gym, and now I can't sleep. Looks like I need the workout to get me sleepy. We're graduating the first part of training at my new job. So, tomorrow we barely have any work to do. Probably about an hour or so they said, then we'll have our ceremony and go home. In my case, it'll be go to the gym, then go to Romp and Roll to sign and get the invites.
I just seem to go back to Bee's party, don't I? I'm excited. I miss my girls. This is so hard right now. I only get to seem them for a few short hours. I'm used to seeing them all day minus school time. I have 8 more weeks left before I can do that. On the nights I get home early, I put them to bed. We were informed that there is no more going home early. At least next week, I start going at 1:30 instead of 11:30. I'll be able to pick them up from school and spend a little more time with them. I feel bad, and i miss them, but at least I'm doing what's right for us. They're better for it, we're better for it. I could tell myself that I want to stay home and just be with them and Redmosqui, but that wouldn't do us any good. Obviously, I have excellent insurance benefits. I work for a great company. I have all I need. Bug goes to kindergarten next year! Registration for that is 3 short months away. How crazy is that? I believe I will be finding Bee a full time school so I can switch to a day shift. The hardest thing to believe is that it's really coming!! Since Bug was placed in my arms on April 8th, 2005, and Bee on January 3rd, 2007 I knew things would be different and that time would go buy quickly. It did. Knowing that we made it feels good! It wasn't easy, by any means. But it was necessary. And it was amazing. I did miss my husband, but we both got to see our children in different ways. We got to experience parenting differently as well. Our children didn't have to experience day care. Redmosqui and I have the rest of our lives, the girls are only little once. And we got it--- ALL of it. With this new job, I'll need childcare 1.5 hours a day, 4 days a week. That I'm not worried about at all. It's only from February until June when Redmosqui is off for the summer. Then we're done!! Bug will have made it to kindergarten, and Bee will be in a fulltime preschool....
Done for tonight. :)
My Bug and My Bee: