The Dysfunction of Motherhood

Ok, so I haven't blogged in a while. Daddy D is busy working outside all of the time. And when he's not outside, I'm at work. So it's been busy busy busy. Father's day was okay, at this point I'm not exactly sure what I got my husband. I know it was more than one thing. I know I got him a grill cover... oh yeah... pictures of the girls. They're getting big. As my body falls apart, it's getting harder to sleep and keep up with them. My birth control (IUD) is know to cause some sleeping problems and it's hit me head on! On top of that my blood sugar is 500+ all the time now. That doesn't do me any good especially since once I'm sleeping, it's hard to wake up. Learning that it does that has explained a lot of things about my life and the way I was growing up. But still... it's causing me headaches and other pains.

Back to Father's Day... I was okay with my father not being here this year until while checking someone out at work, this lady said "You young people always forget to call your dads on fathers day. Don't forget to call yours." I'm sure I made her feel six inches tall when I told her my dad recently passed away. She said she'd pray for him but she didn't say it with too much concern or even a second thought that she might have hurt my feelings. It's crazy how people just don't think before speaking anymore. My dad was sent to his grave by a doctor and it's something I've tried not to think about. I try to remember that he's better off but when she said that to me, it just... I don't know how to explain it other than it ripped a new hole in my heart. I always called him on Father's Day... and this year would've been no exception if he was here, or if I could call heaven or the afterlife or whatever.

Ok, I went a little to deep there for my own liking.... I miss reading blogs and being on the computer. But there is a lot going on and we're in and out all of the time. But since it's almost 2 and I'm awake, I'll post a good number of pictures. And I'll stop blogging here to go read my favorite blogs.


Pictures... pictures and more pictures!--- (it's what i do when my husband is outside)